No, don't tell me I have low self-esteem. I know better than to think that.
I've refereed Traveller from the beginning, because I was the person who wanted to play it. And I've gotten better at refereeing.
When there is a known plot line to run with, I can manage just fine. Players tend to be creative problem-solvers, and if necessary I can guide them in how to use their characters to get things done.
But when it comes to sitting down and sketching out adventures or campaigns, I find I lack a certain type of creativity. Just pulling plotlines out of thin air seems to be hard for me to do. This most recent convention, where I am running two short adventures, is a very typical example. I have to come up with two plot lines, and I find I am paralyzed by the vast numbers of choices available.
I can run a CT adventure. I can riff off of same. I can pull a plot line from a book -- almost any book. And yet, I stall and fret for weeks, before landing on an idea... and as often as not, with significant help and suggestions from others (thank you, Whipsnade!).
I've refereed Traveller from the beginning, because I was the person who wanted to play it. And I've gotten better at refereeing.
When there is a known plot line to run with, I can manage just fine. Players tend to be creative problem-solvers, and if necessary I can guide them in how to use their characters to get things done.
But when it comes to sitting down and sketching out adventures or campaigns, I find I lack a certain type of creativity. Just pulling plotlines out of thin air seems to be hard for me to do. This most recent convention, where I am running two short adventures, is a very typical example. I have to come up with two plot lines, and I find I am paralyzed by the vast numbers of choices available.
I can run a CT adventure. I can riff off of same. I can pull a plot line from a book -- almost any book. And yet, I stall and fret for weeks, before landing on an idea... and as often as not, with significant help and suggestions from others (thank you, Whipsnade!).