Why do you have such a strong philosophy that you require this sort of incentive... and at the same time you're obviously very moved by concerns. Not moved enough to try, though? Is there a past experience so strong that all you can do is worry?
Robject,
I've been wrestling for over a day now with how I can explain my position. If you and I sat down with a couple of beers and chatted for a quarter hour or so, I'm sure I could explain myself. Trying to do the same succinctly in a post has got me stumped, but I'm going to try anyway.
First, let me assure everyone that what I'll be writing applies to
ME and
ME only. This is something I hold
MYSELF to and in no way expect it to apply to anyone else. This is a personal belief
ONLY and neither a suggestion or demand concerning the behavior of others. I hope everyone understands that.
I have a few hobbies, gaming is one of them. My hobbies are
avocations, not a
vocation, and I demand of myself that I honor that distinction at all times. I engage in these hobbies because I love them and because I love them my activities within these hobbies are done of my own free will. I perform these activities for free out of my love for the hobbies, out my gratitude for the continuing pleasure the hobbies give me.
This means my activities in these hobbies are my
gifts to the hobbies I love. In order for those gifts to
truly be gifts they must be
free. I simply must give them freely or they don't count. Nothing I produce can be of any tangible worth.
Please believe me, I'm not some "Information Should Be Free" freak, anarchist, or other such goof, but I do demand of myself that a strict accounting be maintained. I wouldn't trust myself otherwise and I have failed in the past, most recently with the
T5 playtest.
Any gift I produce for my hobbies must be free. It can't behind a firewall, it can't be inside a book cover, it must be free or it is no longer a gift. When I realized that
COTI had mistakenly placed my
Four Basic Cons essay in the Moot, I immediately sent another copy to
Freelance Traveller. That essay was a gift to
Traveller and thus had to be free. That file's location wasn't a mistake on
COTI's part, it was a failure on mine instead.
This why I won't, can't, write for
JTAS. It's not that
JTAS is "bad" or that SJGames is "bad" for charging a fee for
JTAS access or that others are "bad" for writing for
JTAS. I can't write for
JTAS because what I produce must be free for it to remain a gift. Please remember, this only applies to
me and to no one else.
This is why I've turned down playtest credits from
Avalon Hill,
SPI,
XTR, and most recently SJGames. It's why I routinely write statements like
The author EXPLICITLY renounces any and all copyrights to this material and EXPLICITLY places it the the PUBLIC DOMAIN. in the materials I post. It's why I routinely tell people to "fold, spindle, and multilate" the ideas I share. It's why I withdrew so abruptly from the
T5 playtest too.
When Mr. Miller mailed me a few
T5 handouts I was ashamed. No, not ashamed exactly. That's not strong enough.
Mortified would be a better word. When I received those handouts I realized that I'd just
charged Mr. Miller for what should have been a
gift. I abused the playtest, I demeaned what should have been a freely offered gift. People may laugh and I'll understand if they do, but I was actually heartsick over this. I certainly didn't intend to join the
T5 playtest in order to grub about after free stuff, but that is what happened anyway. I failed, utterly failed, and I was disgusted with myself for weeks.
I wouldn't be human if I didn't split hairs on this position, if I didn't bend it occasionally. I can't write for
JTAS for example, but I've helped many others with dozens of
JTAS articles. I explain that to myself by saying I'm just handling jots and tittles, the real material is work of someone else and not a gift from me. That's an excuse more than an explanation, but it's one I can live with.
All this nonsense means I can't work for Mongoose. I can't write something they will sell. I can't charge Mongoose for what is meant to be a gift. What I can do is something I've suggested Mongoose should consider for months now, provide submissions to a freely available errata system similar to that found at SJGames.
I hope this explains my silly beliefs well enough to answer your questions. It's hard to explain it all in text form. If we'd talked, I feel certain that you'd have understood where I was coming from within a few minutes.
Regards,
Bill